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2011-06-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

Time Travel.

Is it real? Will it ever be? Will it possibly happen within our lifetime?
Well I have the answer to that last question.

All you really need to do is write a letter to yourself in the future, with explicit instructions on what to do if time travel was already invented.
Record the date and the time that you want to know the truth in the letter, asking your future self to come back to this particular time, so as to hasten the discovery of time travel and perhaps further advance the technology whilst you are still alive and of course the possibility of claiming credit for such an invention should your future self decide that your present self would just need to wait till when time travel was actually invented IF it would actually be invented. You would need to be hungry for fame and fortune to the extent that you'd be willing to risk the disruption of the space-time continuum for this to work. But really, who isn't these days?

And of course, the latter reason would give many individuals a reason to come back in attempt to gain said fame and fortune for themselves, that's if these time traveling machines or portals or whatever means is widely distributed (which is probably the case should your future self actually appear at the stipulated date and time in your letter, unless you are a genius scientist/inventor that can invent time machines - which would go against the required conditions of this entire experiment, not to care about the possibility of disrupting the continuum. Doesn't apply of you are an evil mad scientist - in either case it would be wiser to keep the machine hidden from the public, which on second thought, would prove this experiment a failure should someone else be the inventor of said time machine. This outcome is highly probable in my case since I currently have no knowledge of manipulating time my joining materials together to form a system capable of interacting with a manmade idea.

There is also the possibility of time travel being pulicized but controlled with rules and regulations such as never leaving a trace or letting the people in the past know of your existence in their times. You could try asking yourself to leaving a nonexplicit sign, perhaps creating 7 markings on your bedroom door frame etc.

But these signs no matter how discreet, may also have been thought of by the time governing body of the future and there mgjt be measures already implemented to ensure they never happen. Maybe someone will destroy the letter? Who knows.

So results?

If your future self appears, time travel will exist.

If a sign you stated in the letter appears, time travel exists OR someone read your letter while you went to the toilet and tried to fool you.

Nothing happens. Now, this is tricky. It doesn't necessarily mean time travel won't exist. It may mean it exists but you didn't manage to acquire a machine (all this past tense grammar for a future action is whack), time travel exists but only in the distant future after you've died (you can also rule out resurrection here), you didn't meet the conditions of th experiment, the time trail rules were too stringent that even your greedy self-loving future self didn't manage to bypass it, OR your letter got destroyed/lost before the machine was invented.

2011-05-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

Here's the problem with Nicole Seah's foreign worker policy:

quota on foreign workers -> more jobs for singaporeans -> higher wages -> companies have less overall workers + no increase in productivity since increase in wages independent of work -> lower productivity -> slower growth -> lower demand for SGD -> depreciating ex rate -> increased costs since s'pore is not a mainly exporting country + effect of inflation (which overwrites increase in wages)-> depreciating assets -> bad investing environment -> increased emigration + lower FDI -> slower growth -> repeat

It's a cycle of self-destruction, Singaporeans are not willing to accept the low wages foreign workers take, plus even if they were, the low birth rate wouldn't produce the sufficient manpower.

Foreign exposure isn't necessarily a bad thing, you get different styles of working and point of views on things. 2 heads are better than 1.

These are short-term goals and imo a pretty shallow point of view focusing on the selfish needs of individuals, rather than the long-term goals of the country's economy, which would ultimately benefit their them anyway.

2011-02-09T09:47:00.000-08:00

Okay, I've been inspired by the diligence of Harvey, so here are my goals for now:

-Actually go out and make that film (and hopefully win)
-Study 1 chapter (or at least half) of finance every duty
-Master violin
-Bench 50-50

Once these are done, they'll open the door to more things.

So let's do it. No more slacking.

2010-12-18T06:59:00.000-08:00

If the 2012 apocalypse comes, this is my prediction on how it's going to happen -

and it is very possible that this happen, it's all up to the politicians to stop or start it.

Sometime between Dec 18-21, South Korea is scheduled to conduct a live-fire artillery exercise on Yeonpyeong island, supported by 20 US troops. North Korea has warned that it would 'retaliate', like it did about a month ago, if the exercise went on as planned because it does not recognize the Yellow Sea border drawn after the Korean War. It threatened a much deadlier attack than the last.

So, if South Korea goes on to conduct live-fire exercises with the 20 supporting US troops, the North is going to attack Yeonpyeong island (it is warning that its military does not speak and not do). This may possibly kill some of said troops, including the supporting US marines, leading to a retaliation on the South's and US's part, seeing how it would be the 2nd time and condoning 2 attacks within a span of a month would be stupid (think Hitler and the Policy of Appeasement) and that US has been a long standing ally of the South and an enemy of Communism.

With this, a declaration of war (or finishing what was started) will follow.

I don't know what China is going to do, but what it does would have a major impact on the tide of war.

And as these 2 forces' superior combined strength begin to overwhelm the North, the latter is going to turn to nukes, which will spark a nuclear war, and eventually the end of all things as we know it.

The Mayans predicted the world would end in Dec 2012, and that timing is fitting for our current political crisis.

Kim Jong Il has nothing to lose because he'd already suffered a stroke, and there's age. North Korea isn't exactly thriving economically and its citizens aren't wealthy and powerful people that control the global markets. Kim Jong Un is young and young men like violence and war. So what would you do if you had a whole military with nuclear weapons at your disposal. What would you do with such power at the ripe young age of 26/27?

There you have it. We may all be doomed.
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In other news, I drove to Woodlands to have my violin class today, shifting up needs a little getting used to.
Then I drove to NTU. On the way there, I saw an RTA with station personnel. It caused a jam.
Anyway at NTU, I bought a financial calculator at Yunnan. With the amount of visits I've made to NTU, I think I know the campus pretty much in and out. Love it.

I was supposed to go for martial arts classes at Raffles Place with Justin but he had something on, so we're signing up next month.

Then came home for a Christmas party. I ate from the buffet and left :)

2010-12-08T07:04:00.000-08:00

Duty yesterday was awesome, because I was no longer the DSC or Control Room IC. I slept in a place other than the watchroom for the first time in weeks. But the thing is - I couldn't sleep till about 1am because we were watching markets jumping - and consequently, I didn't hear the fire calls that, I was told later on, came at night. I'm lucky it wasn't my appliance. Next time I'm sleeping downstairs.

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Anyway, today I met up with Sujay, Benedict, Nick & Chew to watch "Skyline". I thought it was pretty good. Loved how the creatures looked like zerg and/or infested protoss, and I loved how they used a nuke just when you began to wonder why they hadn't. Also the VFX was tight, not perfectly integrated with live action, but still great.

Before that, I went to Raffles City Tower, and joined a crowd of crowds of businessmen. I was wearing a Darth Vader t-shirt, really felt like I fit in. Anyway, I followed a bunch of people to the 17th floor, because I didn't know that a certain elevator was an express one to the upper floors. So I stepped out of the 17th floor and got the suspicious-suspect-gazes fixed on me. It was a nerve-wrecking few seconds as I waited for the car headed downwards. Stranded there, with nothing but Vader to back me up.

After that episode, I met Sujay and ate BK with him. At that time I had about a thousand+ in cash in my wallet after some hasty transaction that left me a remainder. So I was on constant guard throughout, ready to strike at anyone who looked at my wallet.

Just kidding. I was preparing to run.

Then we met the rest and Ben went to play in the arcade while we cheered him on as he sniped and punched and hadouken-ed enemies.

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I also emailed HomeTeamNS for my card, which has been quite overdue, and they replied saying it would come next week. Oh yea, finally!

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2010-12-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

I think I'm going back to blogging.

Literally just 15 mins ago I lost in a competition. The moment the radio DJ's said they would be calling the winner, I knew I'd lost, coz I didn't give them my phone number in the first place. Ah well.

Yesterday, I met up with John again, as well as Khairul and Hidayat to film for the Singapore Media Academy's Creative Video Awards. I lost last year, and I might again this year, because I don't know how the editing's gonna turn out, and I'm kinda regretting entering the professional category because apparently I can't even make a music lyric video, haha.

Here's my losing competition entry:

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Anyway, the reason why I stopped blogging about 7 months ago was because I was called unto by the government, not personally of course, to serve my national service, and I've been preoccupied with training ever since. At least, until now.

I've successfully passed out of the 6 month course and am now a sergeant, working 10 days a month with an awesome allowance. I'm loving NS so much that I might even extend it for a couple of months before my tertiary education starts in 2012.

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Recently, there's this thing going on on Facebook.

"Change your Facebook profile picture to a cartoon from your childhood and invite your friends to do the same. Until Monday (December 6), there should be no human faces on Facebook, but a stash of memories. This is for eliminating violence against children."

Sound familiar?

I don't know why so many people go along with it. I can guess that it's because:
a) They're just going along for the fun of it.
b) They think this will help fight child abuse.

If you're one of the b) people, you should realize that it's just a meme going on, and the fight against child abuse part is most likely there to convince people to follow up. This is a fact: Changing your profile pictures to cartoon characters will NOT help the fight against child abuse. And no, it's not going to bring greater awareness to the cause. I mean, would you decide to start searching for such causes and donate to them after changing your picture and seeing so many others do so? I think not. You'd probably just go on about your Facebook business. If you really wanted to fight child abuse, you'd do something that would actually fight child abuse.

A lot of children are being bullied on the internet by people who pose themselves as someone else, using pictures of other people and/or cartoon characters. I use my own face and therefore stand firmly against any acts that violate or abuse children.

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Remember in primary school, when it was taboo for males and females to like each other? Well, now that sacred bond is being formed all around me, people are getting married! Some already have children. In youth, we vow never to participate in exchanges of saliva with the opposite sex because there existed, but when we grow old, suddenly it's impossible to live without them. We're all hypocrites.

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It's hard to earn money in this world. Recently, I've been looking at supercars, reading about the luxurious lives of the rich, and just.. envying. I want that too. I know you should be happy with what you have. But I also heard that you should live life to the fullest, right? My understanding of that is that you'd want to do and try everything there is to do and try - and that requires some capital.

2010-10-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

So, this is what I did for the 6 months that I was in NS:

and now, I'm on my 1 week block leave, doing the thing that I've always wanted to do since the day I enlisted - NOTHING. The feeling of boredom never felt so good.

Anyway, I'm officially a sergeant now, and I'll be your friendly neighborhood Fire Fighter at Changi Station from next Monday onwards. So call 995 if you have an emergency :)

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I've been going to NTU these past few days, with a couple of trips here and there with Huz, Harvey, Ilyas, Sujay, Bryan, WZ, & Choon Boon. There was the midnight drive to random place till 2am+, the sleeping in NTU carparks, shopping(sorta) in town, gym, museum, libraries etc. My fuel tank is nearly drained, and all that town parking (not to mention ERPs) is really draining on my monetary supply. I'm talking about $30 in 2 days. Damn.

In my free time, I practiced violin, re-played Warcraft III RoC + FZ and.. hmm nothing much actually.

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I don't like growing up. Sigh. Growing up has changed me, changed people around me, in ways that are diminishing. Barriers start to form over silly things and relationships are formed for benefits. You start to see the cruel world. But this cruelty was forged by grown ups in the first place, so it doesn't make sense to continue fueling it. Nonetheless, we do it anyway.

I find age has tired me of many passions. I used to be enthusiastic and wanting to 'just do it'. But that's nearly gone. There are fluctuations between such optimism and apathy. I don't understand it. Is it fatigue? Perhaps.

This blog used to be updated everyday, but I have grown tired. This is an example.

2010-09-25T11:16:00.001-07:00

This week was Fire Investigation week. We watch a van and a car burn, then we had to investigate and compile a report. We did the report in groups, which reminded me of the dreaded PW in JC. It isn't bad if you think about it, but when you've yet to finish the report, it's a major pain in the arse.

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I'm back in the old inspired mode again. I wanna do so many things right now.

Here's my updated list of things to do:

-start making videos+movies
-master violin, write music
-train back muscles
-be a successful investor

That's all for now. There are others, but they'll wait.

ARGHHHH.

I just wanna finish the darn POC video, get my sergeant rank and start doing stuff that I'm supposed to be doing.

My weekends, which are supposed to be holidays/rest days, are completely non-existent (not literally, because I do not have control over naming standards). I stay up till about 4am each day on the weekends editing videos. Then I get up at 10-11am and restart the process. I don't even get Fridays off because I take approximately 2 hours to travel home from camp, which is, by the way, on the other side of the island. When I get home, it's dinner, shower, and violin practice. Then I have to sleep early because I've got class the next morning. Damn.

But, I actually do love NS. I dread having to study in university. Not that I'd rather have no school to attend, but I'll really have no time to do much then.

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I think deprivation either inspires or kills. I've become bored of certain activities because I haven't been actively 'activating' them. But my interest in other activities of a similar fate has been resparked, and it's grown to a raging fire. Then again, maybe deprivation doesn't kill interest, maybe it just shows you the truth. Perhaps you were doing that certain activity in the past and sorta enjoyed it because you just do it very often, but not doing it has made you realize that you do not actually derive positive feelings from it. False and forced 'happiness'?

But.. I guess sometimes, activities do require constant activity to be fully functional to fulfill their emotive purposes.

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I dunno why I talk about happiness so much these days. I've been thinking of food a lot lately too. Why? Could it be the circumstances I have come under that is conscription? Deprivation finds new love? Could it be that my ageing mind has come to terms with itself and summoned the homosapien survivability instincts (to make money and support myself) in me? Nah. I think it's just girls. Girls talk about nothing but happiness and their disillusioned and limited means of attaining it through family, shopping, and food. I don't understand them. I'm a geek.

But there's hope, because I see an increasing number of females subscribing to L4D2 at LAN parties these days.

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Last night in the shower I was pondering on life. I was thinking how I only had one life, and I was wondering if I should just go ahead and pursue a career as a filmmaker, which would be my dream job. But if it fails, I'm doomed. Sure, I could always work and attain some capital before pursuing it as a hobby. But I'd be wasting a large chunk of my life doing that. And who knows where and when the grim reaper lurks.

Wow, I actually pressed ctrl+s to post this. Must be all the editing.

2010-09-19T00:36:00.001-07:00

I created a second channel on YouTube to post more random stuff.

Here's the CD Day Parade, our segment made it onto the front page of The Straits Times.

2010-09-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

My 18th year was full of happiness. It was an amazing year, and I thought life was great. I even changed my views, that were once so
critical, of Singapore. I thought NS was a good thing. Well, in my 19th year, I still do, but let's just say that sometimes dreams taste sweeter than reality. You spend a period long enough with other people, and you begin to see how they really are. But I've learnt not to trust others, I've learnt the value of a dollar, and that you can't rely on anyone to pick you up but yourself. I guess these are symptoms of depression. I've got a mild case of it.

This unfortunate state is a result of having a greater certainty of becoming an SRB driver for the remainder of my NS term, and that is because I have a license. Though I would be well paid compared to other vocations, the ideal idea that has already been ingrained as a goal in my head since the beginning of this course makes things depressing. I know it's selfish and stupid to think this way, but hey, would you be happy after receiving horrible grades for a life-changing examination, knowing that there are people far worse than you - those who can't even attain education? I don't think so.

This, coupled with an unfortunate event that led to a somewhat major monetary setback on my part are to blame. The consequences of not going to a fire station are firstly, the lost opportunity to save lives and gain experience in real situations, secondly, the $2000 meal allowance accumulated over the 2 years (SRB has been overtaken by Sodexo), and lastly, the extra time I'd have if I didn't have to stay in the first who-knows-how-long term.

But I should count myself fortunate, because there are a few people who feel worse. They are getting OOCed tomorrow after completing 5/6 of the course. That's sad. I feel for them.

Oh, and the bit about trust was because thefts happen around here, and I'm a victim. I think my life determines happiness in years. One year I'm happy, another everything goes wrong. I can already feel the incipient stages of the 19th year burning into me. I'll try looking for the silver lining.

2010-06-10T06:11:00.000-07:00

Morning was a breeze - PT, breakfast, aircon room.

But then we started BTM, which saw us donning our full bunker gears. We spent 4 hours doing hydrant drills. It's tough because of the heat. It's like wearing 10 layers of sweaters in the hot summer sun. A few people were dizzy and vomitted. Luckily, nobody fainted, this time. When we were done, we were covered in so much sweat, we looked like we just jumped into the pool. My brain was boiling in the heat. I think I've got a mild fever from that. Crazy training.

2010-06-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

In the morning, my bunkmate's iPhone got stolen. I got my lost beret replaced today. But I had to pay for it. I ran to the dorm to get my nets card and to the office to make payment with chew. I saw my friend in the admin office. We waited pretty long inside, but the aircon was nice.

Then we had punishment pt where we did about a hundred push ups, lots of jumping jacks and running. We had a urine test in the morning, and we submitted our 11-Bs. I still haven't gotten back mine.

After lunch, we collected our top boots, which is much easier to wear compared to combat boots. Then, we had our actual pt. We ran about 6-7 rounds around CDA.

The first Sabah group is leaving tomorrow while we have our bunker gear training for the first time :/

we had nights out tonigt because the first group is leaving tomorrow and we were well behaved. So we had carls jr for dinner :) when we came back, I was thirsty as heck and drank down nearly my entire water bottle. Then suddenly, our ic came in and told us we have water parade at 1040 -.- it's in 5 mins, I have to go :(

2010-06-08T07:58:00.000-07:00

Saturday:
I drove baby around the city, multiple times, because I lost my way. I'm pretty unfamiliar to many areas in Singapore, so I ended up wasting 4 hours' worth of petrol, which is approximately 1/4 of the tank. Dang. We went to beach road to get my beret and some other stuff. I saw Jernard and Azari. Then we went to bugis to have dinner. I parked at the library because I couldn't find any other lots and it was expensive.

Sunday:
Watched Prince of Persia with wz. It was not bad, but like any typical video game to movie adaptation, it didn't break expectations - which weren't really high to begin with. I like the individual scenes, but they weren't sewn well together. Book in at night.

Tuesday:
We had our SOC test today. I think I failed. Because it had just rained. I thought I made pretty decent time at first, till I reached the seining trainer. Because it had just rained, imthe bars were wet and slippery. Almost all of us were stuck there. I managed to touch the last bar, but didn't get both hands on it before I fell off. Dang. This station slowed me down alot.

Anyway, the rest of the day was supposed to be pretty relaxed, but I got punished for mouthing an answer to my bunk mate when he was asked a question. I ended up having to do 100 counts of 8 jumping jacks on the spot. And after I finised them, which was something like 10 mins later, my calves were aching and I thought it was over. But then, I was told I had to write out the CD pledge 500 times. I began writing immediately after I got the papers, but the pledge is pretty long and I began to realize 500 was a HUGE number.

So, I spent the rest of the day writing lines. I just finished. And the lights went off. Dang.

2010-06-04T04:45:00.000-07:00

Book out day! There wasn't a confinement after all. I guess they let us off (for now). Took the term 1 test today, it was about 1hr 40mins but we didn't have to do some questions because we hadn't learnt the topics they tested yet. It was okay except I forgot the functions o finance despite revising it a few mins before the test started. I was amongst those who got the platoon punished again :/ I lost my beret on Monday and my boots were dirty from the SOC yesterday. I couldn't polish them because I was busy studying :P

After book out, xy, yf, wilson, zaky and I went to eat at jurong point's burger king. Oh, I also frgot my wallet. Or a moment there, I'd forgotten what I'd forgotten. I think I've hit my head too many times in camp. I've been forgetting a lot of stuff lately, memory loss?

2010-06-03T03:28:00.000-07:00

Well I was cheated, it wasn't an SOC test, just 3 trial runs. Damn, I never thought the obstacle course would be tiring, but it was. We had revision for tomorrow's theory test. It's all open ended. Then we had PT and that was it. I had to sprint 4 times, I qas knoked out by the 3rd sprint because I used my 100%. Dead tired and sweating all over.

Someone has a suspected case of H1N1 in our platoon. Good thing I've taken my shot.

I have to study now :( it's like my life revolves around studying, haha.

2010-06-02T06:14:00.000-07:00

We had lectures the whole day today, besides the usual morning pt and a wake up cum punishment push ups and run. I didn't sleep much last night because I was using the phone till 1230, and we have to wake up at 5 every morning. During the water parade, I and 3 of my platoon mates wiped the water droplets on the ground before te sergeant came to inspect, because he was knocking people down one by one, if he saw any water on the ground. But that got the whole platoon, excluding us, punished. We had to watch.

We're also confined this week, I think.

I saw an amazing thing. A green-blue fiery comet like call flying in the sky. It was so close, so huge. It went by for about a second. I wasn't imagining stuff coz some of my friends siting near me saw it too. I'm not sure if it was a shootig star or UFO, but it was amazing. I've never seen anything like that before. Wow.

2010-06-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

I thought of all of you. I don't know why, but I kinda miss them. Little to no contact for so long makes you think of all the good things.

No man, remember the bad things they did. Remember.

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I'm in my 5th week of ns now. I'm lying on my bed reminiscing about the past. I guess I just don't want to remember. I am a silent sufferer, but that's the way life treats you. I've been having a stream of unlucky events hitting me. Last Thursday I almost lost my jockey cap because I left it in the cinema, but I remembered it just in time to rush back a retrieve it before the doors closed. Luckily, I'd left when the credits just started rolling. It was shrek, so people stayed for the colorful credits. I was in a rush so..

I also nearly lost my gutters, empulets, and I actually lost my headphones and used my new 3GS ones, only to have my dad find it after I booked into camp. I drove to camp and my dad drove back, but when I got off, I dropped my beret onto the road (I only found out about this the next day) and my platoon mate found it and passed it to the provosts. I went there to collect it the following night, but they couldn't find it :(

I have also been sick with severe cough, sore throat (I lost my voice), and extremely grotesque rashes on my feet. The coughs are still here, but subsiding slowly. Sore throat's gone. Rashes are healing up with my spammage of mopiko cream. BUT, some disgusting growth sprout out from my back. Hopefully it's not a mutant egg. I can't do crunches properly now because it's painful to lie on my back on a hard surface.

Anyways, there's an SOC test and the term 1 theory test this week. The theory test is open ended, with essays. Damn. It includes things like thermal physics, fire chemistry and commander systems etc. It's a thick bunch of notes. We have to pass it to stay in the course, which, btw, upon completion rewards us with a diploma, a sergeant rank, 10 day/month shifts in stations and 1.2k pay :) Woot! I think life here is a blessing, and was one in disguise till I realized it. We've got a gym and swimming pool we can use after 530pm.

I'll be going to Sabah on 6/17 for overseas training for 9 days. I have mixed feelings because we're going to be living in the jungle and I heard there's a solo night where you'll have to survive on your own for the entire night in the jungle. I heard.

2010-05-15T11:31:00.000-07:00

Sigh. I'm doing everything wrong. Bad things are happening.
Sigh. God, please help me. Show me the light.
It was all perfect at first.
Then it could only fall from there.
My life. My one and only.
Why must this happen at all?
I don't know what to do anymore.
All I can do is to pretend.
I don't get it.
I've been trying my best.
It's not good enough.
I'm sorry.
I really am.

:'(

2010-04-30T10:51:00.000-07:00

I don't know.
It's happening again.
I know it's me.
But I dont want to change it.
Hmm.
But who said idealism can't be realized?
I guess I'll keep trying.
After all, it's not really worth it.
Begin, I shall.

God taught me that humility breeds happiness.
I learned it the hard way.
But trust me, I've learnt.

2010-04-24T03:55:00.000-07:00

My violin teacher laughed at me when she tried to imagine me bald.

"Crossing Hennesy(sp?)" is boring.

Can't wait to work on my projects, and for upcoming blockbusters.

Can wait for enlistment day.

2010-04-22T21:33:00.001-07:00

I got an acceptance letter despite my grades.
Thank you lord, thank you lord!!!
I guess sometimes we all have to be patient.
Blessings will come.

2010-04-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

We finally finished filming today. I've got a slight sunburn on my neck, and I'm tanner. Damn.

While filming, we encountered many people who 'befriended' us. Amongst them were some kids, fascinated by our wands and lightsabers, many drivers who stopped to talk to us, a woman who gave us cokes while we were under the mercy of the hot sun, and an old woman to whom we taught north, south, east & west in Chinese. On Tuesday, she asked us what we were filming for. We replied, "channel 8".

Now, all that's needed is a few months of editing. Dang.

I still have a few more projects to work on..

2010-04-20T05:20:00.001-07:00

Monday:
Went to buy wand with John. It all started and ended pretty early.

Tuesday:
Went to film with HL and John.
Felt depressed with all the university stuff going on.
Sigh.

2010-04-17T05:54:00.001-07:00

Friday:
My aunt and uncle came to visit. So I, with my family brought them around to see Singapore. I drove. I think I'm getting used to the road. We went around the esplanade, used Fullerton's bathrooms (they have pretty aggressive sucker fish there, and nice ferraris there btw), ate Shanghai food in Geylang, and had crabs at the Singapore indoor stadium.

Saturday:
I woke up early to head to NUS for my architecture aptitude test. My first response when I saw the questions was, "WTF."

It was something to do with 'opposition'. I guessed without being told, I already know I flunked it. Good news is that I don't have to reschedule my dental appointment which was supposed to clash with the interview for people who passed the test. Besides, there's another 2 years for trying :P

I went for guitar lesson. I lost my pick, so I bought a red one. Watched "Kick Ass" with baby. It's definitely one of the best movies I've watched this year. Oh man, inspired.

2010-04-14T09:29:00.001-07:00

I went to the hardware store in the morning to purchase a single nut. The woman was nice, she gave it to me for free.

Today was also the first time I felt apathy in 5 months. Well I didn't have to, I could've written my scripts or gymmed or practised music, but I was lazy. So I slept most of the day, watched some tv, played some gta iv and some mw2.

In the evening, I drove my family to the airport to have ice cream. I had a banana split. First time I've had ice cream in years. I figured since baby likes ice cream, I like ice cream :)

2010-04-13T05:52:00.000-07:00

Today, I spent the morning and afternoon fixing up my guns and spray painting them. They're still drying outside now. Then my brother's friends came over. So I played with them. Video games and cussing at strangers with cyclops glasses and lightsabers :)

2010-04-12T02:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, Justin and I went to katong park for a free kapap trial lesson in the morning. We learnt basic elbow and kicking techniques, as well as grappling and ground work. It was like having sex on the grass, except you were attacking your opponent. Of course, we were owned when we tried it with our teachers. It was pretty neat, got me sweating and breathing like a session at the gym. So we're going back for more starting next Saturday.

Today, I went for my driving test. In the morning, I felt bloody nervous. It was like taking the A Levels again. It was the long waiting time. Anyway, I passed :) so I can officially drive on the roads now. I had to watch an 8 min video of vehicle accidents and had to wait another hour or so to apply for the license. I went next door to check out secondhand cars. I found one dirt cheap one - $16800. Nuhbad. A BMW goes around $130000.

I met baby after that and we went to popular to purchase stationery for our upcoming architecture interview at NUS. Then we went to the library to study architectural stuff. Though I didn't really know what to read. So I typed this instead.

2010-04-10T04:53:00.000-07:00

Monetary matters are stressful.

Property investment.

I'm aiming to buy my first property within 3-5 years.

$1,000,000 ~~

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I need to focus for now.

Next week:
-Driving Test
-Filming
-Architecture Test

2010-04-09T06:16:00.001-07:00

Monday:
Watched "Clash of the Titans" with baby. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be.

Tuesday:
Woke up early to go for driving revision at woodlands. Met wz after that and went to east coast to roller blade. It was my first time ever. I broke my roller blading virginity. But it's still pretty hard to keep balance, I wonder how others do it.

Wednesday:
Driving revision in the morning and met wz again in the afternoon for Billy Bomber's at marina square. I loved my naked gun. Though it was pretty expensive, it was worth it. These are the few times in which I do actually enjoy eating. We went to search for a wand prop later on, but to no avail.

Thursday:
Went for driving revision in the morning and met John for gym. Found out habib had mw2, so we partied. John owned us in a later private match. 70-7. Practised violin later in the night.

2010-04-03T09:46:00.000-07:00

Finally, I'm done with the script. Well, most of it anyway. I can't think of an ending. Who should win, the wizard, or the jedi?
Hmm...

Anyway, there're new video competitions coming up. I think I'll enter. Prizes are worth a few thousand, both in cash and non-monetary items.

I need to find a score for Love Story for violin. Haha, it's nice.

2010-04-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

I'm in KL now. I just settled a buncha things.

So after rescheduling things, I'm starting driving lessons on Tuesday instead. I won't be having any on Sat and Sun, and my test is on Mon. This makes me a little nervous. I want to book a Sunday lesson, but seems like there are no slots available. I'm going to read up on my notes I guess. I've gotta wake up at 4+ on Tues because the dang centre is at Woodlands.

I decided not to bring my violin along because I didn't think I would have much time to practise, seeing how I'm rushing through the scripts, and maybe filming something (I brought my equipment).

Man, I need to find the shuttle bus at Woodlands.

2010-03-31T00:22:00.001-07:00

Went to the zoo with baby yesterday. It rained halfway, so we slacked at B&J. My feet were soaked because the one day I decided not to wear waterproof boots, it rained. Dang. Anyway, it was fun just spending time with baby.

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I'm going to KL again on Thursday.
While I'm there, I'll have to:

-finish scripts
-practise violin

I'm skipping violin and guitar practices on Saturday.

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Also, I'm signing up for Kapap classes soon.

Crap, one more month of freedom.

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I received my iBanking account last night.

I shall start my investment plan soon. Money money money.
I've got about a 10k capital to begin with.
Get a partner, and begin.

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My driving revision lessons start next Wednesday.
I hope I pass the test.

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After I've sorted everything out, I think I'll start churching again.

2010-03-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

2010-03-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

2010-03-27T07:16:00.000-07:00

The violin teacher gave me the scale book till Grade 8. I decided not to take exams, so I can learn faster :) Exams are such a waste of time -.- what's paper if you've already acquired the skills?

I met baby after that, and I went to create my second bank account, except this one's with iBanking and a debit card. I'm finally using plastic instead of paper, and I feel like a man. Well, not really, but having a card is something different. Maybe the transition to manhood will come with a driver's license? Haha, that's IF I pass and obtain it in 2 weeks' time.

Then I went for guitar class and learnt 'Beat It' by Michael Jackson. Haha, pretty nice song.

Went to watch How to Train a Dragon later, and had dinner. Walked home with baby and slept on the bus.

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The SMU people whose video I helped to edit asked for my address. Hmm..

I've gotten my 2 weeks of slack time and I'm satisfied. Now, it's time to get back to work.

2010-03-26T08:17:00.000-07:00

D Major is slightly more confusing on the violin :/

2010-03-25T08:43:00.001-07:00

2010-03-24T09:32:00.000-07:00

2010-03-11T06:23:00.001-08:00

Erase all the memories, the troubled years, and start afresh. Eat some humble pie, and press restart. Even Woods and Neo had their downfalls. It's time to rebuild.

Level 1.

2010-03-08T08:28:00.001-08:00

The good thing about living near an industrial area is that you get an abundance of hardware stores. I went over in the afternoon, after waking at 1230pm, and purchased some superior contact glue and a couple of bolts. I then used the latter to modify the hot shoe adapter that arrived a few days ago. Now I've got myself something that looks kinda cool. Attachments do all the magic. I shall begin filming soon - I hope.

I finally got my day of slackness - Playing PS3 the entire day. Though my eyes are a little sore because I had to wear glasses coz JC made me blind. The life.

2010-03-07T22:01:00.000-08:00

Finally! I've got some drive back. Inspiration's a poppin'. I'll tryta start maybe Friday? No more talk, just do it.

2010-03-07T11:00:00.000-08:00

Haha, too cute. I can't take it anymore.

2010-03-06T10:00:00.001-08:00

Hey, you know what? Fuck you.

2010-03-05T08:45:00.000-08:00

I suddenly feel that I'm fucking dumb. I was born fucked. Everything that I do, I fucking fail in. God, did you give up on me? Sigh. I shouldn't have stopped going to church. But I don't think I can step in one again. Sigh. Give me another chance. Let me try again. Let me do this right.

2010-03-05T08:42:00.000-08:00

fucking shit fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK.

ARGGGGHHHHHHH.

2010-03-05T05:08:00.000-08:00

Fucking lost it. Fuck. I guess it's like this. Start again. You fall and get back up right? I guess life disruptions can really fuck your life up if you let em. It's fucked up how everything depends on a few weeks of exams. I fucked up. Sigh, but I guess I didn't like that life. So I guess it's another a start from here.

2010-03-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

The world is fucking unfair. 2 years of consistent hardwork has come to nothing. My eyesight sacrificed for nothing. I am fucking depressed. I think I'm going to start smoking, I need an escape.

Sitting beside 2 annoying fuckers boasting about their results isn't helping. Shit I need to kill something.

2010-03-03T10:51:00.001-08:00

CRAP. I feel so inferior.

2010-03-03T10:00:00.000-08:00

2010-03-03T09:05:00.000-08:00

Haha omg, been I prolly spent over $3000 in just 3 months. Shit. I just spent $250 a couple mins ago. Good thing credit cards exist. Singapore doesn't have a hot shoe adapter anywhere, so I had to ship it from the US. Shipping fees alone cost me $60. Shit.

Anyway, tomorrow's the last day before I start grieving on Friday. I'm gonna spend it with baby. She got a teaching job that pays more than 2 months of my NS allowance. Haha. Frankly, I don't understand why people work during holidays. It's the only half-year vacation I'd probably get for a while now, so I'm enjoying it. But I shall be supportive of baby :)

I discovered chilli cheese fries, which had somehow eluded my attention despite my countless visits, at Carl's Jr a while back. I love it. Just had to mention this because it is a significant discovery.

I'm stocking up on filming equipment. Most people are only free next next weekend. So I had to postpone it till then. But the date's still tentative. Perhaps I'll start filming with SMN 2 first. I got a little bit of inspiration while talking to wz at City Hall today, after he bought his guitar and I re-stringed my acoustic. I'm going to rewrite the script to fit this 'faction' idea. Talking about guitars, the guitar bags they sell there are so much better than my shitty ones. They have this stupid sling that pokes me in the shoulder whenever I sling it across. I think I should invest in new ones.

If all goes well, I'll get my license on April 12. I booked lessons on the Wed, Thu, Fri and Sun preceding the Mon test. That's, after more than a month without driving. I hope I can pass. Otherwise, I can't drive baby around before I enlist. Pity I can't drive to results day. On second thought, it's a good thing too, I might be too depressed and might even go on a road rage (I'm kidding, but then again, who knows).

Violin's all right. I can play simple songs. But I've also been learning Canon in D. Only problem is, I don't know vibrato. They only teach that in Grade 4, so I'll probably learn it myself. On the first lesson, my teacher told me that she expected a little kid, and so was shocked to find that I was already 18. When I was making an arrangement with her in the last lesson, I told her I was free on weekdays. She then wondered, wasn't that a school day? I told her I graduated, and she laughed. It's embarrassing to be an 18 year old in Grade 1.

I started learning French. My conclusion? Crap. It's a tough language. But no matter, I shall break through the barriers as I did math, and like it eventually. I've decided to leave languages to be studied while confined in camp after I enlist. Might bring along the acoustic to practise as well.

Finally finished the MW2 spec ops with John last night. 2 player co-op makes it so much easier. We even completed the Echo missions in one night. Of course, we used strategies that made the game 'much less challenging', if you get my drift. My PS3 got repaired today, so I'm going to play GTA IV in the morning.

2010-02-24T05:00:00.000-08:00

Met baby for breakfast as usual. But today, she made breakfast for me. I was touched. We sat down at McDonald's and ate away. It was 2 ham-egg-bacon-melted-cheese sandwiches, Ferrero Rocher chocolates, and cheese sausages. Some of my favorite foods. She bothers doing things like this, I've really gotta treasure her. But it was a little too much, baby spoils me, so I didn't manage to finish everything :( It's a pity, I really wanted to, after all her effort (she woke up early just for me).

We went to Sim Lim Square to get a cleaning cassette and a shotgun mic. One shop we went to had this man trying to con out my money. I paid $39 for a frickin cleaning cassette. A standard DV tape is only $18. He also tried to sell me the 25m shotgun mic for $490+. I knew it was a con because it's only a shotgun mic, and when I tried to leave, he immediately reduced it to $200+. I bought the exact same model at an audio store later upstairs. Guess what? It was $128.

Baby was tired, so we went home early. I cut her lip with my braces a couple of times. Damn metal. I even stepped on her toe accidentally today. Shit. I'm sorry :( but my angel is really tolerant of my antics, she's been keeping her cool and there hasn't been piss in the air. That's why I love her :)

2010-02-20T09:25:00.000-08:00

Driving to Penang takes approximately 10 hours. Driving to Thailand? I'm not sure. But I'm pretty sure it's within 24 hours. I could do that. April 12 is the day.

2010-02-17T03:51:00.001-08:00

I spent last week with baby, I'll remember the 3 days, and all the other dates we've been on. I treasure each moment we spend together. It's like all the wars and conflicts of the world have stopped, it feels so peaceful, being with you. Heaven on Earth.

CNY spent in KL last week.

Don't know what to say.
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Suddenly I'm depressed.

2010-02-17T03:41:00.000-08:00

2010-02-10T07:54:00.001-08:00

I want to play the violin part.

2010-02-09T07:07:00.000-08:00

I love you <3

I could spend hours doing nothing with you and it would still be worth while.

2010-02-08T02:35:00.000-08:00

..and after ONE WEEK of daily 8 hour driving sessions, I can now drive. Unofficially of course. TP's probably on April 10 or 11. I'll be booking it tomorrow, after my auto-lesson. YES. So if you need a lift, just gimme a call. Haha. I can finally stay out after midnight, without having to pay cabbies. Well, all these will happen provided I pass my TP. Drove to Woodlands from Yio Chu Kang to and fro twice today, and had a trial test today, I managed to pass with just 4 demerit points: for not checking my blind spot when turning into a right turn lane, and for forgetting to change down to the first gear after stopping. Fatigue is responsible for the latter.

Haven't touched my PS3 in about a month, because the bluray reader is malfunctioning. Sending it in for repair soon, but I'm not in a hurry. I've got my angel :) I want to go to Universal with her, which is opening come CNY.

Going to Malaysia next week for CNY. I want to brush up on my violin skills and my french. Filming shall begin the week after.

Once again, I'm loving life without school.

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On a duller note, SAT results are out this Thursday. Shit.
I don't think I'll wanna check it for now.

2010-02-04T03:28:00.000-08:00

Been spending my week driving everyday, couple hours a day. I drove for 8 hours today. Who'd knew just driving could double as a workout for the legs. Mine are sore now. At this rate, I'll probably have finished all my lessons in a span of 7-8 days. Haha. It's a little tiring though, almost every instructor asked me the same thing, 8 hours of lessons, are you crazy? Ah well. I've been driving manual so far, I've already booked an auto lesson. Just one though, since that's what's required, and since the class 3 TP is based on manual.

I also hung out with my baby at East Coast. Sometimes, it's nice just sitting down doing nothing, allowing the crazy breeze to blow your hair away.

Damn, life without school is AWESOME.

2010-01-29T21:00:00.001-08:00

2010-01-28T05:41:00.001-08:00

Yesterday I passed my FTT. I bought the "tys" and did 600 questions on the day of my exam. That bit helped :P

I wanted to apply for my PDL, but the counter had already closed. So I came back today. After grabbing a number and waiting for nearly an hour, I took the eyesight test and failed -.- so I went to Ang Mo Kio and purchased new lens for my glasses. I have to collect them on Sunday.

Then I walked back to the driving centre and used the trysell machine. It hung on me. So I proceeded to the counter and made my bookings. I transferred all later lessons into the same days of earlier lessons. Averaging at about 6-8 hours a day. Okay, maybe only for a few days. Just like school, right? It's only for 2 weeks. This way, I can get my license sooner.

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I didn't sleep for 2 days. Tired. Malls should have beds.

..oh, and the iPad = one bigass iPod

If people really wanted to help the Haiti victims, they'd learn to fly a helicopter to transport stuff or to doctor instead of spamming facebook walls with dumb apps.

2010-01-25T10:27:00.000-08:00

800th post and this is my gift to you:

SAT results - Feb 11
'A' Level results - Mar 5

I hope you like it :P
You heard it here first

2010-01-25T04:08:00.000-08:00

2010-01-24T12:10:00.000-08:00

FTT
Guitar(s)
Violin
TP Exam
Movie Series
Song Writing
French
German
Chinese
College Freshman Applications
Stock Trading
Business Proposal

..and that's the first part of it.

Suddenly I feel like going to the Grand Canyon.

2010-01-23T13:07:00.000-08:00

Finally! SATs are over. Now, I've got 3 days to study for the ftt.

Right after the 4 hour+ test, where it was not only a challenge of mental reasoning, but also one of endurance to cold, wherein the airconditioner had blown directly at me and sapped any remaining effectiveness of my jacket against its blizzard temperature.

Then I went to Tampines, taking in the heat that was the standard of Singapore. It was a transition of extremities - as though from Pluto to the Sun. I was sweating like a mad dog. Actually, not really, but it certainly felt like it.

I went for guitar class and learnt about bending and a pretty cool tune. Then I signed up for violin classes. Hopefully my teacher speaks English, because her name screams China.

Later, met John at the airport, together with 3 of his friends. Sat in Fish & co. for a few hours and left for Terminal 3, where the girls headed off to the departure gates. John and I headed to T1, only to find the supermarket closed, thereby devoiding us of proper drinking water. So we went back to T3 and camped at the Coffee Bean where I survived the rest of the night on a, in spite of its expensive-ness, large hot chocolate. My favorite :)

So I'm still in the airport now, typing this at 4:41am. I was feeling pretty tired just now, but after a couple minutes of shut-eye, I'm pretty alright.

2010-01-19T06:37:00.000-08:00

4 days to SAT.

And my current average score is 2000-2100. Shit.

These 3 days are crucial.

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2010-01-17T07:59:00.001-08:00

2010-01-12T10:48:00.000-08:00

I guess I'm writing on here less and less.
So many things to do, so little free time.
I'm almost cured.
It used to be one of the firsts, everyday. But who would've ever though, that it only took that, for me to quit it.

Some people say love is blind. But I believe it brings us to see the real beauty of life.

If it ain't a hallucinated phenomenon. Almost perfect.

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It feels like 'A' Levels again, except this time the libraries are much more empty. So I can go much later in the afternoon and catch up on sleep. Which, may not really be a good thing after all, since I have less time now to catch up on content. The library seems to be closing really early these few days.

I also realize that, during non-peak periods, the library is plagued with old men farting, middle aged men talking loudly on their cells, and young men shushing at the latter, shouting in haste when they see no compliance.

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After SAT next sat (pun intended), I'll have approximately 3 days to study, attend lessons and practise the FTT questions before I take the test on the 27th. And yes, I did sign up with the driving school, namely because I want to be assured of a pass, plus it entailed me the ability to book my practical dates earlier, an advantage that I had readily snagged upon my attainment of studentship (I'm taking the whole of February). I must do this as quick as possible, so that I may attain my driving license and consequently chauffeur my sweetheart around :)

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Anyways, I've gotta take care of some stuff in the few days to come:

NOW
-study-
Jan 22: SMA Award Ceremony (no wins, for fun laughter, peace and joy)
Jan 23: SAT test date + Attend guitar class + Sign up for violin classes
-study-
Jan 27: FTT
Jan 28: Commencement of French and German studies + writing of script of masterpiece
Jan 29: First driving practical

Thinking of traveling in March. If I've got nothing to do then.

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My New Year's resolutions?

-Be a better man/guy/boy.
-Enjoy the best age of my life.

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Oh no, I don't want to work yet. I'll probably be working for a part of my life, and I'd probably complain about it. So why start now. Besides, NS is kinda like work already, when you don't get to shoot guns or kill people. Don't quote me on that, I'm kidding.

2010-01-10T11:29:00.001-08:00

2010-01-09T01:57:00.001-08:00

2010-01-08T06:03:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, having just one person beats having a million.

There's hardly any time to play video games now, let alone write here.

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Some people complain about the adult fares that have just kicked in. But I say, take the bus, pay in coins, student fare. Ha!

The other day, I lost over $5 in EZ-Link money due to my constant forgetting of the need to re-tap the card when you get off. So for this, I vowed revenge through the very sly (or not so) means of paying in student fares till the amount I saved made up for what I lost. You know, I even got onto a third bus in an attempt to re-tap my card after I had failed attempt due to me falling into a sudden daze while on the bus and only realizing after I had gotten off. I travelled one bus-stop and actually remember to tap. Except this time, the distance was too short, so it didn't register. Instead, it read "Entry OK". So there, 3 bus rides, all untapped.

This is why we need CARS.

2010-01-07T00:15:00.001-08:00

LOL shit. Well we don't have to think about winning anymore, that's for sure.

Haha. Should've come up with a better story and not only on the night before shooting.

2010-01-04T10:10:00.001-08:00

Okay, this is one of my suckier works.

But really, what 3 min video CAN you come up with with a theme like "learn media live media"?

Well, I'm not too hopeful about winning, but let's just see what happens. Haha. We'll know on Jan 22.

For now, I have to study for SAT.

Deleted scene at the airport since I couldn't fit it into 3 mins. I already had to cut a lot of stuff besides this:

2010-01-02T13:23:00.000-08:00

YES! I'm FINALLY done editing.

It's not great, but it's done. Haha.
Well, let's just leave it to fate if we win or not.
Doesn't really matter.

Anyway, my bedtime has been around 6am everyday, and I wake up around 9-10am too.

That's ALOT of sleep I'm getting.

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Just had my first electric guitar class today.

Time to start studying again. Soon.

Tomorrow (or today) will be the last day playing video games.

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I must learn to remember to tap my EZ-Link twice on public transport now. Damn.
When it beeps once, you know it's time to get a car.
Hopefully I'll be able to drive to school on results day.
That depends on whether I can successfully book a test date in March.

2009-12-30T23:47:00.000-08:00

2009-12-30T21:56:00.001-08:00

Back from Bali, back from a villa deep in nature without any modern technology whatsoever.

Anyways, what I did in Singapore:

Dec 24:
Filming at McRitchie, met at 6.30am. It rained in the morning, so we got soaked, seeing as the camera had the priority of the sole umbrella that was available. Hung around under a shelter looking at the dragonboaters and monkeys. Then it stopped raining managed to finish, met greg at airport to finish filming.

Dec 25:
Went out with yinfei, watched an independent film at Cathay, learned never to watch independent films especially if they're black and white haha, walked around for quite a while before going to Vivo, where we walked even more before eating at Crystal Jade. Then went to Sentosa for abit and back. Thanks for the gifts :)

Dec 26:
Went to driving school to book the whole february of 20 lessons, which I hope I'll be able to cover 33 subjects within. Lunch, then signed up for electric guitar classes at Yamaha. They didn't have violin classes, so I'm going to sign up at Ossia. But only the saturday after Jan 23, since it's an individual class, and since it starts right when my SAT ends, distance. Went to airport and flew off to Bali.

Dec 27 - Dec 30:
Bali

2009-12-23T06:16:00.001-08:00

Christmas, my favorite time of the year, besides the empty wallet, haha.

2009-12-23T00:21:00.001-08:00

2009-12-22T18:05:00.000-08:00

6am - This is my normal bedtime now.

2009-12-22T05:03:00.001-08:00

Yes, I passed BTT. Now onto writing scripts. I have to finish 2 by the end of tomorrow.

Bored people should really come act for me, to unbore.

Life is moving really fast now haha, I love it.

2009-12-21T08:57:00.001-08:00

Do you think a couple could ever exist without arguments?

I believe it can. It just takes mutual understanding.

2009-12-20T08:00:00.000-08:00

depression has a cure

..but it doesn't last :(

2009-12-18T10:22:00.001-08:00

Today, I am officially broke. For realsies.

2009-12-17T08:52:00.000-08:00

STRESS!!!!

2009-12-16T09:15:00.001-08:00

So many things to do. So LITTLE TIME!!
People who say holidays are boring,
are quite.. wrong.

I'm sleeping at 5-10am these few days.

2009-12-16T09:13:00.001-08:00

Sigh.. don't leave me now. If you do, I'll have no one else.

2009-12-16T08:56:00.001-08:00

I slept at somewhere between 4-5am last night, or this morning (whatever you'd prefer). But miraculously, I woke up at 9+, and surprisingly not in the pm this time.

Anyway I lazed around and decided that I would go to the gym. So I did, stopping by Superdog to get myself a tasty, but expensive (on my current budget), breakfast, before reaching Yio Chu Kang gym at half past noon. It's already been 3 consecutive days thy I've travelled all the way to Yio Chu Kang, grr. I need a car.

So I met Bryan, xi & cb at the gym. I did legs. I hate legs. I couldn't walk after that, plus I felt dizzy with headaches and everything looked misty. Normal for leg training. Oh, and it was pretty painful as well.

Then we walked to SSDC for xi to register for his Basic Theory Test. Coincidentally, I also met John, who had just passed his test. I'd better study for mine next week.

It started raining soon after, so we ran back to the gym, pretty much soaked. I used the hand dryer to dry my stuff, but it wasn't really effective because it emitted cool air.

Went to 日本村 to have a buffet. Stayed there till 530 or so before we left. At that time I was extremely bloated and I felt very much pregnant. I felt even more pregnant when I drank down a whole bottle of soya milk.

We headed to Junction 8 where we walked around abit albeit my bloated stomach before heading to the arcade where we played some manual car racing and drumming games.

Tired. So home. Gotta finish ediing quick. I think we'll have to reshoot on Friday.

2009-12-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

Went to the gym today. Arms are really sore, can hardly type.

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*sigh*
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Should I start going to church again?

2009-12-12T18:21:00.001-08:00

I dreamnt that I was in the Himalayas, and I was climbing up really steep and high rocks. It was awesome. I was taking pictures and about to post it up here when my alarm clock rang and woke me up.

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Today was filming day. Met wz, hl, bob, yz, jo, john & greg at Ang Mo Kio station. Greg broke his shoes so he went to get a new one, while we went to Fair Price to buy an extra prop and some water. The prices weren't really fair though, I paid $5+ for a tiny brush which ended up not having much screen time anyway.

Then we took a bus down to MacRitchie (sp?) and found a good location to film up a hilll.

The time till 4 was spent filming at the reservoir before we headed back to AMK Hub to get some Sumo House lunch. Then we proceeded to John's house to finish up the filming.

It was already 6+ when we finished. We decided to go play L4D2 at Raiders in AMK. Time passes really fast when you're taking turns killing zombies and humans. It was already 10pm by the time we decided to stop. Got dinner at subway and headed home by the usual 86 to 89 route. Well I would've if I hadn't missed the last bus by 3 mins. So I had to take a cab home. Legs are aching. Wallet is emptying.

2009-12-11T00:55:00.000-08:00

When someone doesn't like you doing something, but lets you do it anyway,

Is it love in the I-shouldn't-stop-him-from-doing-what-he-wants kinda way

Or is it ignorance in the you-do-whatever-you-want-to-I-don't-care kinda way?

2009-12-10T17:10:00.000-08:00

Urghh.. My head aches, but let me try to recall the events which took place yesterday.

I woke up on Wednesday in the afternoon, at lunch time. After having lunch, I changed into my prom outfit, which included a long search for shoes.

Then, I headed to Kovan where I met Gabriel and Bryan. I took a cab there because I was late, because I'd spent too much time finding shoes. Wasted $10.

Anyways, we went to Jean Yip to get our hair done. I took about 2 hours in total to finish. Then Gabriel and I went to Lina's house. It was there then that realized that I had forgotten to bing my admission ticket. So I took a cab and went home to get it. I was pretty unlucky though, there wad a traffic jam that really slowed things down. Plus, when I reached my house, the sole of my shoe came out. Now, you can look at this two ways: bad luck or a blessing in disguise in that my forgetfulness of the ticket allowed me to change shoes just as I reached home rather than causing me unnecessary trouble by having the sole come off during the later events.

However, I did spent another $30 for this cab ride alone, a waste I might add. So I met Lina, Gabriel and Xin Yi back where I started and got into yet another cab, in which we proceeded to the Meritus Mandarin Hotel.

When we reached there, many students were already at the lobby taking photos. I think proms are just excuses to take photos in grown-up make up. But I guess I like to do that too since we also took quite a few photos, haha.

Prom was alright. The food was Chinese, much like those served in Din Tai Fung and Crystal Jade. But it was quite good, just not filling. That was probably because we kinda wasted alot of food because we hadn't finished the respective dishes within stipulated times.

There was also a free rubik's cube for everyone. 4 people did not turn up at our table, and so we probably ended up having the emptiest table around. But that just meant more rubik's cubes for us :P

The prom programme went something like videos, piano playing, dancing, prom king and queen games, and other games, all arranged in some sort of order. But most of the time, people were just taking photos with one another.

Anyway, after prom I followed 0708 to Swiss Hotel, intending to go a bar. We took separate cabs, on the way witnessing a gang of supercars roaring past us. When we reached, they changed their minds and decided to go clubbing instead. So we took more cabs to Zouk.

It was a lady's night out, so free entry for the girls. Haiyan bought a bottle of Martell. We went down to the dance floor at first, but decided we needed to get more drunk to get into the mood. So I we went to drink. I drank 2 mixed glasses of Martell, and 2 half-filled glasses of pure Martell, which was really strong, as well as an entire glass of tiger beer. I now know beer tastes horrible.

We went down to the dance floor to party for quite a while. It must've been quite long because I am kinda deaf now.

When we went back up, a few of us had gotten really drunk and were doing and saying certain things, haha. Yhe girls and some of the guys went home first. And later, wanting to avoid a fight or so, we decided to end the night early, although it was already 2+am, and force the more drunked people to stop and get into cabs home.

Wz, Haiyan and I took a cab back to Haiyan's place, where we spent the night. Wz and I watched Planet 51 and I played some Modern Warfare 2 on the computer. We left for Junction 8 at around 7am, having not slept a wink. I was feeling a little lost, not thinking straight. People were giving me stares because it was morning and I was still in my prom clothes, and I looked a little drunk. I wreaked of alcohol too.

I'm finally home now (9am), and the sun is already shining brightly. So tired and head is spinning. A little hungover.

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Yesterday was a day of many firsts. First time entering and patronizing the services of a salon and using hair spray and glitter, first time attending prom, first time clubbing, first time drinking alcohol.

2009-12-08T10:16:00.001-08:00

So I left my house at 730 in the morning in my dad's car and headed to school. There was a traffic jam which made me reach school at 845, caused by some wrecked car in the middle of the expressway.

Anyways, I met Xin Yi and she passed me the footage they shot of the school band. I'm supposed to edit them by Thursday. I'll try to finish it by tonight.

After that, I left school, having failed to find any available pianos within the school compound, and headed for City Hall. I went in a futile search in Peninsula Plaza of a music shop from the 1st storey all the way to the 30th storey.

Then I just didn't know what to do. I stared into space for a while I wished that I'd brought something to study. So eventually, I decided to go home, which I did. I took my basic theory test book and headed back to City Hall, having a footlong subway sandwich along the way. Funny thing is, throughout today, I'd hardly opened that book.

So I met Bryan and we walked around Peninsula Plaza in another futile search for that music shop. We then gave in and asked the information counter for direction, which really, could've solved all our problems from the start. But I mean, real men don't ask for directions, right? That's why GPS was invented.

We found out that we were in the wrong mall all along. It was actually Peninula Shopping Complex (or something like that), which was opposite of Peninsula Plaza.

There, we found the guitar shop and then wz came. We walked around and browsed stuff, much like any other shopping trip. I've never shopped as much as I have these few days, and it's really kinda taking a toll on me.

We ended up in Funan after an indecisive round. Delifrance did not have the banana crumble I was craving for. So we had Ya Kun Kaya Toast, growing tired of it too. Too much.

We found Cristofori, and I finally decided to get my electric guitar there. I didn't know anything about guitars, so Bryan and wz were checking the stuff for me.

Then Bryan left and wz and I went to meet John at City Hall. We walked to Suntec City's McDonald's and started discussing the script. We finished (sort of) after a while and we might be ready to film on Friday. My phone is running out of battery power so I can't type much. So that's that, we headed home. And they lived happily ever after.

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12/7/2009

2009-12-06T10:20:00.000-08:00

Who'd knew I'd be taking my SAT 1 back in aj?

My new entry proof:

2009-12-06T09:55:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was both a short and long day, didn't sleep much, but I promised.

I didn't sleep much last night either. There were alot of things on my mind. My muscles were also aching from the gym session. It's funny how everytime a volunteer got standard chartered, I happen to hav muscle aches. Not fitting. Anyway, I had a protein drink breakfast at 2 something in the morning, which was extremely concentrated and caused me to be immobile for a couple of minutes after consumption.

My dad then drove me to The Padang. Empty roads are great because you can go much faster. I think I'll be driving at such times next time. I just love being in big, open, non-congested spaces. Plus, no ERP. There were also a couple of motorcycles racing on the expressway.

Then I reached the Padang. Met up with the rest and queued for the volunteer registration.

We later walked through the field to one section only to find that there was a locked gate separating us from our intended destination. So we backtracked and walked around the field again. It was already pretty muddy.

Then we were positioned at our 10km medal giving stations. There wasn't much to do, so I played some DS and listened to some music. We were also called to form a line to help transport who knows how many hundreds of cartons of 100 Plus drinks. It took a really long time before everything was done. I ended up having muddy shoes and muddy pants, the latter I was going to wear for prom. My socks were also soggy, and I had to live with it all the way home since bryan and wz were too easily disgusted by the sight of my soiled holey socks.

I also saw a few friends, jp, abraham and kimberly, who was hosting the standard chartered marathon. Of course, there was Adam too, haha. I didn't see many people though, since most of them were actually participating in the marathon.

Ben, gab and I decided to go to the starting point to find someone, but we ended up unable to proceed at a barricaded gate, where security was tight. So near yet so far.

I spent the rest of my time there handing out medals to returning participants and unpacking boxes of even more medals. It lasted for a few hours, which was pretty tiring because of its repetitive nature. There seemed to be an endless supply of people, as well as an everpiling pool of litter, consisting of empty bottles, cardboard, styrofoam and any other forms of rubbish you'd find in an event such as this.

We waited quite a while for our group leader to meet us before we could get our $20, half of which was used to top-up my depleted ez-link card value.

I really want to sleep, haven't really slept for 2 days. Muscles aching all over. But I can't sleep either. It's quite difficult to explain.

2009-12-05T08:19:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I really don't know what to do.
Sometimes I feel like there is nothing worth doing.
Sometimes I wonder if reward is punishment.

These are the times.

2009-12-05T01:28:00.001-08:00

I'm willing to give everything
I'm willing to do anything
just let me have the chance

2009-12-04T23:42:00.000-08:00

2009-12-04T03:22:00.001-08:00

I woke up late today, as usual, and went to meet ben, gab, wz, bry at Bugis's McDonald's. I'm quite sick of sausage mcmuffins with egg. Then we went to look for clothes for prom. I bought a dark colored shirt and a white tie. Wz bought his stuff, Ben also bought some pants/shorts/things, I wouldn't know. I am a fashion retard, so I was open to the advice of pros, which happened to be with me, except they kept insisting on female apparel, which I don't think would be fitting for prom, or any other point in time of a male's life for that matter.

Then I went to Kinokuniya to get my SAT guidebook. I have to learn 3500 vocabulary words by January. Later, met up with the rest at the MRT station, where wz left and xi arrived. We went to Orchard, and kinda 'explored' Ion for abit, much to gab's insistence that the toilet was at higher levels.

When we finally got there, we were near the top. Ben discovered a lighting system outside, which consisted of 5 male and 5 female commonly used toilet symbols, that he suspected would light up if the cubicles in the respective toilets were occupied. Unfortunately, the system seemed to have crashed or something, because they didn't respond.

Then we went to Takashimaya to have Modanyaki. I also bought some strawberry milk and my usual bottle of water. Come to think of it, I must've given at least a few hundred bucks to Cold Storage over the year just for water alone. Dang. We also saw the High-Five cast on stage, it got me excited, and I began singing Go Go Power Rangers.

We took a bus to Far East. Xi bought the tight shorts thing, and Bry bought a shirt and a tie. I bought another shirt and a blazer, which kinda depleted my monetary supply. I even had to exchange 150 ringgit to SGD to make up the total cost. Damn, I'm quite broke now. I started the week with at least $1000, now I don't have much cash left. Haha, shit. That's why we've gotta make money quick.

Later, Xi and I went to the gym at Yio Chu Kang. We have both become very weak. My 6 month absence from the gym made even 10-10 frickin difficult. I used to be able to bench 35-35, and 20-20/25-25 felt like a feather. Now, 10-10 feels like the world. ARGH!! SHIT!! I have to train up again! Should I take Creatine? I dunno.

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Right now, I have quite a few things to settle.

In order of priority (with deadlines):
-SMA video competition (1/4)
-driving license BTT (12/22)
-SAT 1 (1/23)
-Violin classes
-Electric Guitar classes
-French
-German
-Improving Japanese
-Improving Chinese

And of course, I've gotta get my strength back. I hate feeling weak.

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I'm thinking of learning Latin, Greek and Arabic too, after I've mastered French, German, Japanese and Chinese. But that's still a long way into the future, so I'm not too worried about that.

2009-12-03T02:33:00.001-08:00

After spending a few hundred bucks in 2 days, I decided that I needed to put a stopper on the leaking tap. So I stayed at home today to recuperate. Watched movies the entire day, and now I'm pretty tired of watching stuff. I'll need to find a day to get an electric guitar and a larger violin, as well as stuff for D&D. Then there's this standard chartered thing going on on Sunday. I kinda regret volunteering, because I wanted to run (or at least walk :P), but somehow I got dragged into it.

I'll need to spend a couple thousand bucks too on movie props, damn. I think I'll wait till February or so, when I can actually drive these props around, and when I have the financial capability to purchase them.

It's already 12/3, I really outta get a script ready by Monday, so we can start filming.

2009-12-02T09:46:00.003-08:00

Having neglected my DS for a few years now, I'm finally playing it again, thanks to Scribblenauts. It's frickin fun. haha

2009-12-02T07:59:00.000-08:00

YES! Liv is back, and after my A Levels too.

So it's electric guitar, classical violin :)